Losing it in class #51

In one of my classes today I had to ask myself "Why the fuck do I do this?"

I didn't apologise for saying this

The click click click of mouse activity was constant,

There was constant chatting

There was lots of attention being paid to computer screens 

(I'm certain that this was not related to class activity)

Very few were paying any attention

I refuse to police this

It was 16:00 on a Friday afternoon

The College was almost empty

I regularly asked students not to distract others beside/behind them

I regularly asked for the chit-chat to stop

I was ignored

All the time

Shit

Why the fuck do I do this?

I want to make a difference

I can for some

But not for all

I was not happy

I showed this

I was not polite

I lost it

I'm sorry.